枯寒生晚,复何似、张绪少年时意。
薄命不逢何至此,满眼啼妆龋齿。
城是城非,年来年去,万八千能几。
半痴半了,更痴儿计孙计。
回首仕已半生,仕何如已,已矣羞拈起。
幸有橘丸丸日大,且复从公围戏。
若论弹文,更书谤箧,吾历无馀纸。
多年致仕,大都有甚恩例。
枯寒生晚,复何似、张绪少年时意。
薄命不逢何至此,满眼啼妆龋齿。
城是城非,年来年去,万八千能几。
半痴半了,更痴儿计孙计。
回首仕已半生,仕何如已,已矣羞拈起。
幸有橘丸丸日大,且复从公围戏。
若论弹文,更书谤箧,吾历无馀纸。
多年致仕,大都有甚恩例。
在枯寒的晚年出生,又哪里像张绪少年时的风姿意态?
命运不济未曾逢时,何以至此?满眼是啼妆与龋齿的衰颓。
城中是非纷扰,年复一年,一万八千日又能有几?
半是痴迷半是了悟,更有痴儿与孙辈的种种算计。
回首仕途已半生,仕宦又如何?罢了,羞于再提起。
幸有橘丸日渐长大,姑且再随您下一局棋戏。
若论弹劾的奏文,再写满诽谤的箱箧,我生平已无多余纸张。
致仕多年,大体上有什么特别的恩典或先例呢?
Late-born in bleak cold, what likeness bears to Master Zhang Xu's youthful spirit?
An ill-starred life, unblest—why has it come to this? Eyes full of tear-stained makeup, decayed teeth.
The city's rights and wrongs, years come and go—how many make eighteen thousand?
Half foolish, half clear; still more, the schemes of foolish sons and grandsons.
Looking back, half a life in office—what has office been? Better ended, ashamed to pick it up.
Luckily, there are tangerine pills, growing daily larger; let me follow you awhile in the game of encirclement.
If we speak of impeachment missives, or further, books of slander in chests—my history lacks spare paper.
Retired for many years—what great grace or precedent is there, in the main?
刘辰翁晚年对仕途人生的反思。
在认知层面解构官场沉浮,达成对个体价值的重新认同。
词人回顾半生仕途坎坷,自嘲命运不济,表达对官场生活的厌倦与致仕归隐的无奈。
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